Day one: Xmas 2015
I have been drunk everyday give or take a few this year and when I say drunk I mean drinking till I sleep or fall over. I have ruined a perfectly good relationship, destroyed a family, lost a job, a car, a lisence, blew the chances with another fair maiden and broken two ribs, slipped a back disc, punctured a lung - not to mention spent approximately 5 thousand dollars and counting on alcohol and its associated problems. I got into the habit of drinking because I thought I had earnt it and because I was running from my stress and anxiety. The stupid part is alcohol was causing me stress and anxiety. A wise, fat animated man once said "alcohol is the cause and solution to all of life's problems" and I used to agree with him. I enjoy one or two beers after work the problem is after I have had one or two beers I tend to think one or two more would be better, and after 3 or 4 more I'm in for a penny in for a pound. I've felt so sick lately I'm sure I have done some major damage to my insides. I tried to commit suicide earlier in the year. I also got pulled over by the police over the limit with my son in the car. I went out last night and just kept drinking, I saw a girl I like and made a dick of myself , I argued with policemen , went to a friends for a bed and he pretended he didn't see me or hear to let me in then text me today asking me if I was there, I ended up walking for miles before a friend picked me up and got me home safely, I got a card today but it was not a Xmas card it was the lawyer from my under the influnce case with a nice lovely $1200 bill. I brought my son a PlayStation and am sitting here writing this while he plays Little Big Planet - I think I'll get some games for myself because I am well aware there are worse things to be addicted to. The aim is to take a year off , travel , get fit plus Be a better dad. I've already turned down a drink today. Tommorrow I'm seeing another friend I always drink with so be a test. Ok off to walk on beach and take grommet to skate park. Dubsie out 8 hours sober.
